Confused and worried
Ok so certain people, one of which might read this blog is asking what do i want to do with my life, because of course, I don't want to work at this place all my life. Then I start thinking about that statement. I wouldn't mind it if I was a manager, but is that probable? Probably not for a long long time. Then I start questioning everything and feel like a worthless being. I mean I'm not using my history degree, so I feel that all that money I was paying was retarded. So where am I now? I thought about going back to school to get my masters, but then what? I have no idea what I want to do. I know, it's a little lame to be asking this now, but I'm not sure. I thought for so long I wanted to teach, but now I don't. I would like to help children, so maybe the masters in sociology might be good. I just don't know. Then I'm thinking about looking for another job, but I've been here for so long....ahh it's just overwhelming. Should I just know what I'm going to do? My boy says don't worry, you'll know what you want when you figure it out and it doesn't have to be this second.
Plus I worry, what if what I want seems so little to others. Like my ideas are not the grand, got to be a lawyer making 6 figures kind. I think sometimes it would be cool to own a cafe or a restaurant....most people think that's stupid. I don't know. So confused. And believe me, I want to do more than I'm doing right now, but what?? I was thinking about real estate for a while, who knows....I think I'm just overstressing about this.
Plus I worry, what if what I want seems so little to others. Like my ideas are not the grand, got to be a lawyer making 6 figures kind. I think sometimes it would be cool to own a cafe or a restaurant....most people think that's stupid. I don't know. So confused. And believe me, I want to do more than I'm doing right now, but what?? I was thinking about real estate for a while, who knows....I think I'm just overstressing about this.
posted by Sarah | 2:18 PM
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The following may or may not be useful, lol.
1. the only opinion that matters is your own. If you don't feel like you're living up to your own expectations, that's one thing. Trying to live up to other peoples is another. 2. I think jobs/careers are kinda like soulmates - few people have only one good match. There's a lot of things that could work for you, and in today's world, you don't have to be restricted to one job or one career. We live in flexible times. So do what feels right for you, in your current situation, and you'll probably be a lot happier.
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I think you'd be a fabulous small business owner. It takes a lot of hard work and guts to make it successful, and if someone knocks the idea, well... it's because they're jealous you'd be willing to take the risk.
My mom has owned her own business since before I was born; it's still small, but it's year round and it's been the most stable source of income she's had (she also has worked at a bookstore, and recently started at a credit union). even though there's some risk involved, people seem to forget that there's risk in the corporate and retail environment, too. steady jobs aren't always stable. just make sure you research before determining exactly what sort of small business you'd like to set up!
Thanks Sam. Didn't even think about that. Thanks. I just feel left out sort of because I haven't found that job ya know. This is what I love to do and this is what I want. people just get in your head and drive you crazy with doubts. I just want to feel like I'm not the only person out there, hehe. Just needed a moral boost.
hmm...i had concerns along the same lines you were having when i decided to join the navy. figured, if nothing else, i'll be doing something i can be proud of, AND they're gonna pay off that degree that i'm not using. :) i'll also be able to use the time to really figure out what i wanna do/where i wanna go, b/c i'm not about to be fired/laid off from this job, and i can't quit either! heheheh.
i'm definitely with nellie on this.
i have a lot of the same feelings as you. after spending a few years doing the corporate gig i am convinced more than ever that running your own business is the best way to go. for me at least. unfortunately the time is not right, but at some point it will be.
pursue your ideas and explore how they feel. you'll know it when something feels right.
In the meantime, you can definitely do a lot of reading on small businesses, start ups, etc. If you have the research done beforehand, so much less work when you know what you want to do, and the time is right :)
Sometimes it's nice to have a job you don't feel passionate about, though. You go to work, you go home, and you don't think about it again until you go in the next day. And you're still young... very few people in their mid-20s can say they have their dream job. You kinda have to work your way up to that.
I guess it's cause i had this full on drive when I worked with a different manager. J was awesome at it and made me feel like I was doing something. Then she went to Texas and my job has become pretty simple. So I was at a high then a low. But woo hoo. I have a job, so I am blessed. Especially up here. My dad is getting laid off in Sept. And he's hurt again. (haha surprise :) The man is always broken.
that sucks! can he get disability or anything?
he is always broken... what's the newest injury?
haha his back, he has two bulging discs that are hitting his nerve. I would spell the nerve, but have no idea on how. But it's the big one :) Yes always hurt. He did it at work, so he gets paid from that. But that's only about 60% of what you would normally get paid. But he will get through this in order to get hurt another day :) My whole entire family hurts on a regular basis. Just part of the deal. hehe.
my dad's falling apart too. in addition to needing a new knee, which he's needed for years now but the doc says he's too young to get it replaced still, i found out now that he's torn a tendon or two in rotator cuff about 5 mos ago and just kept going with it like that. now the tendon's retracted 2" and he's finally getting it scheduled to be looked at.
wow sounds as stubborn as my dad.
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