It's just one of those days

I just want to go home, and crawl back into my 5 blanketed bed (yes I like blankets). I don't know why. I feel like dreaming is good for me right now, a little break from reality I guess. And the thing is nothing is really wrong...I'm just weird right now...Maybe it's cause the weather is changing and there has been a lot of rain and who knows....I've been so confused on feelings and people from the past...it's just crazy!! My head is overthinking...

My grandma is ill again, and it's scary. She's basically doing some internal bleeding and had been before. They used to be able to give her these chemical treatments, but they can't anymore, so it's a wait and see game...The only resort left besides her body healing itself is surgery....Now my grandma is old and has had a lot of surgeries and she has a lot of scar tissue. So really, that's a last resort. It's just weird and I know people are going to think I'm nuts but a good friend of the family and a "visionary" of sorts has had dreams about my grandmother dying in the springtime...my family freaked out last year, but everything turned out ok, but it's spring again and she's getting ill again....so i'm nervous. I believe in those visions and so do the rest of my family. it's the native american side of me I know...this is just hard because she is the Matriarch of this family. She's Grandma ya know....

I swear, one person in my family has always got to be sick or something. It could be I have such a large family, it's just odds :) Well back to work.....