I'm related to Kelly Clarkson

This is horrible. I'm also related to Jesse James. WTF!!! And then a bunch of weird people.

Baby, Baby, Baby

I'm an auntie!!! WOO HOO!! His name is Christian James and I'm so excited. Haven't seen him yet, because I've had a cold and scared to get him sick. They are so delicate. But hopefully will see him tomorrow. But still very excited!!

Finally Some good Eye Candy on American Idol

So happy, these two made it through. Ok the bald guy doesn't look so hot in the picture, but damn between his voice and his real looks....i'm going to have a very good time watching TV. hehe. yes I'm a dork and yes I watch American Idol. I can't help it, it's like crack.

Who Would Sign This?

Seriously, this guy has some problems!! I would immediately hand over divorce papers after this!!

Billboard in Seattle

WOO HOO!! That's the 12th man for ya!!

Ok I'll give this a try

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=Sarahbear

and

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Sarahbear1

I'm going to buy like ten!!

The Sun is out today

haha, my feeble attempt at that paint program...haha. Thank you all for being there. It's been tough, but this is why I moved home. As much as I wonder what life would have been like if I would have stayed in Wisconsin, moved to Texas or even Colorado with what seems like everyone else, I don't regret it. I couldn't be away from my family. Being able to be there for them is too important to me. Especially my mom.

Oh by the way, the Seahawks deserved to win that game and in my heart, they did. Damn Refs!! It was obvious whose side they were on.

Tough Weekend

My grandmother passed away and we got the phone call at 6:30 AM on Friday. I had just gotten to work when my parents got a hold of me. So I went home and helped as much as I could. It's sad. I saw my grandmother the night before. It was hard to watch her, because they had to just let her die. And so she laid there full of morphine, not conscious. But I said my peace and I'm glad I saw her one last time. The funeral is Saturday and she will be laid next to my father's father, my little brother and great grandfather. So at least she's by people that will take care of her. I know that's silly, but I need to believe that my family and friends are looking down. :)
It's been hard dealing with my mom's family, everyone talking about everyone else. At least there wasn't any fighting like we had first predicted. But then again, it's not over yet. *Crossing fingers*

Oh isn't he beautiful!!

Another day in the life of me, Woo Freaking Hoo!!

So found out my grandma (on my mom's side) is in the hospital again, but this time it's not good. She's dying and quickly. The doctor gives her days. Not only does she have conjestive heart failure and something else...she has full blown cancer. They have no idea where it started and they can't find out. They can't do anything for her. So my mom is calling her family trying to get them here quickly and most aren't coming. That's hurting my mom. I mean she wasn't a nice woman all the time and I don't even have that much respect for her, but some of these people are her children. I don't get it.

Me, I'm sad. I'm sad for my mom mostly. I mean I have some good memories of this woman, but not a lot and it's just hard. It's been a couple days now and I just broke down last night. Partially because I was watching last Sunday's Grey's Anatomy (geez I love DVRs) and it was about this woman who died and had a DNR on her chart...and that all reminded me of my grandfather who I was really close to and it just hits you like a freaking brick that this person will not be around any longer. And my poor mom. She's taken so much abuse from her family...and I really can't stand but one or two of them and it just sucks.