Oh and let's pile on more, just cause it's funny to the little aliens screwing with us

Alrighty! Where do I begin. Let's start with the good news, because lately there is so little. We finally have bacteria growth and they now know it's a staff infection that caused the meningitis!! So now they finally know the correct drug to give him, which happens to be good ole penicilin. But he still has headaches and neck aches. So hopefully, he can go home soon. We'll see. Oh by the way, I guess most staff infections are given in hospitals. Yeah hospital!!

Well I haven't mentioned this before, but my parents were in the processing of selling their house and they actually got someone to buy it. But now the closing and stuff needs to happen. Well, not so easy since my dad's laid up. So the closing was extended for a couple of weeks. But my parents haven't really packed anything or looked for a new house. So their idea is to rent a little bit until they can find their dream house, basically one they will probably retire in.

Oh but it can't be that easy. My dad just lost his job. Yeah it was posted in the NEWSPAPER that his plant was shutting down, no notice and only $350. What the bleeping hell is going on with this world!!! I just don't get it. This is why people go freaking crazy!@!! It's a good thing he still gets money from the military and that my mom works. This is just nuts. So here's what I get to do. Find new house for rents ASAP!! Help with deposit and stuff. Pack up stuff, move their stuff! This is when I could perform miracles. All the while, trying to find a lawyer to take my dad's case. If there is a case (thanks for the info S, it really helps!).

So if you happen to see this crazy chick going psycho on the news...it could be me. Who knows.

I have to just make it, one day at a time

so I get a call at 8 in the morning from my mom about my dad. She had taken him into the emergency room the night before for headaches and leakage from his surgery site. Well it turns out he has bacterial meningitis (sp??) and if anyone remembers, I think only Sam, Ryan and Bill might, that is what my best friend Scott died from my junior year of college unexpectedly. So needless to say, I'm completely freaked out, sitting here at work because I have to be here and not able to really concentrate on anything else. I drove here not really remembering that I drove certain parts of it. Very scary realization.

So I got to the hospital ASAP yesterday after my little panic attack of reliving Scott's thing and he has to go in for emergency surgery to repair a tear in my dad's spinal cord. Now he had back surgery a couple weeks ago where this little nick came from. I have plenty of words to say to that doctor right now, but i'll spare you. So they stitched the hole, graphed it, and glued it and that "should" work the doctor says. Who the hell knows, ya know!! And so now he has to stay in the ICU, oh yeah he's been in the ICU this whole time, for 24 more hours. Then "we'll see." Meanwhile, they have to give him antibiotics for the meningitis part, which was caused by spinal fluid leaking and getting effected. He can have seizures, go into a coma and many other things until this disease is out of his body, and the best part.....Who the hell knows when that is going to be. So my father is going to spend at least a week in the hosp. That's the least amount.

I had to share this because well, I only had one friend to call during all this and I could barely tell her, well because they don't really care. And since I really consider you guys my closest friends, besides Amanda and Christy, I needed to vent. Sorry.

Hate the Dentist! Fear the Dentist!

Ok so obviously by the title, I'm not a fan of dentists. I had an hour & 1/2 work done yesterday, fillings, etc. and by the end of it my jaw was locked open. I have TMJ, which is a jaw disorder that really sucks. This is the first time I've never been able to close my jaw. And really quite frightening. So now I'm no longer allowed to do that long of an appt and will have to go back in for a mouth guard to wear at night. This thing sucks. My dad has the same thing. We both have the habit of grinding our teeth in our sleep when we're stressed. And if I don't get this mouth piece it can get worse to where I won't be able to close my mouth for a long time (do not even go into sexual guy thoughts or i will beat you, haha). This is all kind of scary for me. Next time I go, I might ask for gas. I'm scared enough of dentists and now I have the fear I might not be able to close my mouth when I get done!!!

Maybe Vegas isn't supposed to be

So I've spent a few months preparing to go to Vegas. Choosing dates, hotels, saving up, etc. I find out that my aunt (who is only like 26 or 27, yes that's another story) is getting married on the day we are due back into town. The problem is that we do not get back until almost midnight that day. So here are my options and reasons why they are not great options.

1. Cancel trip and replan.
-well i looked at prices for the week after or later and the prices have jumped from $320 pp to about $600 pp. What the freaking hell?!*!! Not an option. Don't want to spend that much.

2. Change flight times.
-haha costs $50 and then whatever the difference of flights would be. So god knows how much seeing reference above. It would be a total of $100 for 2 people.

3. Not go at all.
-ok this is not an option cause i need some selfish love time. I need to have a real vacation before I strangle someone.

So that's where I'm at. She told me not to worry about it, but come on now. Then again I didn't find out until last weekend and it's a few weeks away. So where's the notice??? That's what invites are for. AHHHHHHHHH!!!

A new me

So I've been thinking. I'm tired of looking at myself and would like to change my appearance. I'm having a hard time with the energy of it all though. I would like to lose some tummy flab and slim down some thighs. So I think I will start doing some morning exercises. Something I have never done before because I'm the type of person that waits until I absolutely have to get up to give me enough time to shower, make tea, get dress and get out the door with tea in hand. But here's the dilemma, don't want to come home and get sweaty and shower again. Can't shower before bed cause it wakes me up. So the only logical time is before I shower in the morning. Ahh, this is going to be tough. But I am going to try.

Also, must try doing my hair and not putting it up in a ponytail everyday. It's getting long again and I'm growing out all of the color (yes you can see my natural brown hair haha) so it's kind of crappy looking. But, if I curl it, it's fine. Or basically do nothing and put Mousse in it. But then I deal with it in my face all day. We'll see how this works out. Must go get trim first.

This is a step to make me happier about myself and hopefully get me back the self confidence I once had. haha. I once had! haha....I crack myself up. I know this is probably boring you, but this is a diary of sorts and this is what I'm thinking. haha.

One more shot of Jose anyone??

Ok so that's my weekend. I spent Friday night at my parents house until 11:30 or so fixing their vehicle with the boy and then somehow managed to get up bright and early on Sat to prepare for this birthday party for my aunt. I'd say overall it went pretty well.

Let's just say that two of my aunts showed up already a little intoxicated, so that made things interesting. And managed to drink a good deal more as the afternoon went on. My Aunt Lois, the birthday girl managed to get almost everyone to take Tequila shots, including myself. It was weird and very fun. I haven't take shots since college. (So there you go Kara, I did some drinking for ya, hehe)

So....After the shots, I decided this wine drink would be wonderful. It was some blender mix. Very good, thus ending up me drinking a lot more than I should have. haha. So there I am, drunk with my family. We had a major water fight with hoses, balloons, guns and pitchers. I ended up getting beer spilt all over me, which made my evening crunchy (hair) and sticky (skin). Very fun. Haven't had too much fun like that since Beloit. Sunday morning of course, sucked. I think I'm still hung over. Ahh the good times.

Oh those two aunts could seriously not walk when the night was over and that was about 11:30ish. It was bad.

Morning Entertainment

Ok, so I was so easily entertained this morning. I heard some strange noises outside and my cat is freaking out in the inside of the house, running back and forth from windows, so I decided to check out what it was. I couldn't believe the scene. There were 3 pigeons (we don't have pigeons by the way) and this little black and white kitty cleaning itself not even 3 feet away!! The cat just kind of looks at them and goes about it's business. On the other hand, my cat is on the window trying to break out (of course not working hehe) and go chase these things. I don't know which one he would have went after. haha. He was in his "poof" mode and it was hilarious. This might only be amusing to me, but it was a good start to my day. I have no squirrels due to the raccoon population we have, so I have to amuse myself some way :) The raccoons are cool, but a little scary with the whole rabies thing.

Ok so I'm not such a big dork, well maybe....Hmmmm...

Hehe check this out...http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/6448213/did/8888579/.

Hell Nells, as a side note, and maybe it's because I'm retarded, how do I get the web page link on this thing in the title??

Tons to do, not enough Time

ok so here's the deal, roughly 3 weeks till vegas, I have a list to do from there...relatively small, but added on to everything else, it's getting to me..
-need to find new bathing suit (my ass has out grown my other suit if possible)
-need to find P a suitcase
-must get someone to feed and look after mail/cats/etc.
-need to get all the mini bottles of crap we will need
-make a list of things not to forget for trip

And then throwing a party for my aunt this weekend for her 50th!! so tons to do there too. I don't even want to think about it. I have one aunt coming up to surprise her that I have to prepare and make lodging accomodations for. I have to clean so much. Do lawn work, buy food and decorations!! Going out of my mind. All for love. all for family. breathe. Coordinate parking is going to be a real b**** too cause we don't have a lot of room. Also, not to self, make sure neighbors know. yeah party!!!!!!!

I hate being a girl sometimes

ok so normally a girl can get anything she wants and a guy can be really nice....haha!! I know, only if you're Paris or Pamela Anderson. Cause obviously men at auto repair shops not only like to screw you big out of money, they like to ruin your car so you can come back in. All I did was take my 01 car in to get the diagnostics checked and spark plugs replaced, if needed. Well the big lard of a man comes out and says, "whoever put in the spark plugs, put in the wrong kind and you'll need double platinum ones which is going to cost more." fine, I get that, but not for a total of $75!! Then, they let me know that my spark plug wires needed to be replaced and that would cost me another $100!!!! I immediately told them no because I knew spark plug wires do not cost that much and since my car ran fine before I took it in, I have a little time before needing them. Boy was I wrong!! Because what I didn't know is that these monsters (yes I can think of worse names, but trying to keep the cussing out of this) ruined my spark plugs so that Mon. morning when I try to drive to work, my car will not make more than 1/2 mile. It's just chugging, gasping for life. So I'm pissed. Royally pissed. My boy takes off the spark plug wires and literally had to take one of them off in pieces because those pieces of poos jimmy rigged them back on. So instead of saying, "we screwed up." Those crap heads said, "let's screw this nice girl out of more money by messing up her car." The newest freaking car she ever had!!!!!! Ok so there's my vent. I hate mechanics. They should be lined up and shot. If I was a guy, this wouldn't have happened. Well most likely not. I will be nicer in my next post, unless something else happens. :)

Emotional Cheating?

Ok I've got a question for you. Is there such a thing as emotional cheating? I believe so, if it's more of an obsession rather than little flirtation. I mean if it's affecting your current relationship, then it needs to stop.

The reason I ask this is that I feel so bad for Jennifer Aniston. And I know she's a hollywood start and why the hell would I care. But if you think about, not only is her husband (who's incredibly sexy) with another woman right now, and all these rumors are going on....everyone knows. EVERYONE! And she has to be asked a million times. And it's all just got to suck. I mean it would suck for a normal woman to go through this....And then for them to blame it on her not wanting children, is crap. Would you blame a man for that? No. Reporters are nasty. That's for darn sure.

Guilty Conscience

Ok so I'm talking to my friend A who i've known since elementary school on Sat and we're chatting for about a half hour, when I tell her about C's upcoming wedding in April. A lives in Wisconsin and I was hoping to take an extra day to come and see her after C's wedding. I haven't seen this girl in 11 years, but we talk all the time now. We've lost touch and reconnected. So I would think she would be happy that I was going to see her. No. It was quite the opposite. She completely freaked, saying things likem "I only get one day. Woo Hoo Lucky me." I then tried to explain that I could barely take the time off of work at that time and that I couldn't spend too much time away. And since I'm a bridesmaid for C's wedding, I needed to give C my attention for a few days prior to the wedding.

I guess she doesn't understand that. So now I've spent two days of feeling very guilty about this whole situation. I mean I'm doing what I can and really should be getting back from the wedding on Sun, so I can go to work on Mon. And I know this isn't until April, but I was trying...AHHH!! Then she quickly gets off the phone with me. It just frustrates me because I'm feeling so guilty, and knowing I shouldn't because it's out of my hands. And part of me is just getting angry and saying screw you, I'll just go for the wedding. But then I'm like, no she'll still be happy, even if it's for one day. AHH! The insanity.